As I type this, MJ is crying in her crib, E is crying in the corner, and Abs is avoiding conflict by playing on the iPad by herself…..which is part of the reason E is crying in the corner. Life with you girls isn’t always quiet and peaceful, ha. I feel like I spend a lot of my time trying to make the best decisions I can moment by moment, but this parenting thing can be tricky and it’s not always easy to know what the best answer is – what you guys need at any particular moment in time. What one of you needs at this moment will be different than what you need tomorrow, and different from what your sisters would need in the same situation. It’s a juggling act for sure. I’m part referree, part judge, part therapist….among other things. And sometimes I just hope I’m not messing up too much.
And then, there are some days that click. Yesterday afternoon was one of those times. We were all outside on a beautiful day. You girls were enjoying ice cream cones and sunshine and rolling down the grassy hills. You filled the air with giggles and my heart was full. We stayed past your bedtime, which is saying something as we keep a pretty strict eye on the evening clock most days. It was one of those times that you imagine having when you dream about one day having a family. Just perfect.
And while I watched you girls – sticky with ice cream and covered in dirt – playing and laughing. I allowed myself to think for a second that maybe we’re doing things right. I hope these are the times and days you remember. I hope you look back on your childhood one day and remember rolling hill races and melted ice cream cones and I hope you remember how happy you were.
I Love you forever,
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